City lights raping minds

have turned blue

and all the buildings shattered

now after a party that never became

yes the circle did close indeed

became that strangling

item on my neck

since day one I was blessing you

your voice always

making love to me

bodies like serpents

fallen from my hands

long lost babies moan

in a passionate moment

a gone motion afire

a picture I still have

a faceful of life

in a broken mirror

crush the rest of this also.

there is a chalice

where all sorrow is poured from

now take a bath

stain the walls of this empty room

with tears of blood

with tears of blood

like a leaf in an autumn river I am

carried by a useless vortex

with no return to tree once strong

with no destination

this far enough not far enough not close enough as the last of the

eternities opens not close enough I reach I come

until all words end just to be with you until all worlds end.

Hold me as it seems I fall

take my hand as I think I am dying

overflow as the depths whisper me welcome

to sleep where all beauty turns grey

stain the walls of this empty room

with tears of blood

with tears of blood

ice cold inside

white of yours

growing on me

the air is thin

I want to be gone

it is about

to slip from my hands

I want you

I don’t want you

I seem to fall

I cannot see

make me blind broken shattered

make me blind snow on me cover me

your dreamy silent waves

shades on your belly soft

shades to wash the desert sands

but I was am I am still

waters, the sea is calling

I fall I sink I fall

waters, the sea is coming close

Oh as always I try to see

but your marble eyes kill me again

salt statues in the depts of seas

containers

containers

Cold stream of cold souls

once so warm and loved

forever gone those who meant much

for I am freezing and ice burns

seeking caresses elsewhere

for I am freezing deep

grief cuts deeper than deaths claw

a splash breaks the deafening silence

as they encounter the ground

from the widespread lake

lament echoes

tears reflect

this far enough not far enough not close enough as the last of the

eternities opens not close enough…

join the sweet silence

drown to the beautiful

calm waters of my soul

embrace me till the pain fades

embrace me.

This world is a deceiver

it is thirsty for my blood

the rain is liquid nitrogen

to my soul of a wrong colour

this world is a deceiver

it womits sticky oil on me

stab me kill me

I hate this all to much.

May my face ripping tears be

the salt in your open wounds

…it all is

about to slip

from my hands

I want you

I don’t want you

the white of yours

is growing on me

the air is thin

I want to be gone

broken and shattered…

I want rusty nails

to penetrate my skin

to cut a wound and release this death

to let it all pour out

collapsed

under the light of a violet pain

I lie alone still

come sleep

the sweetest of all thieves

the most delicate of all lovers

to where hypocrite statues are crushed

where your love - the purest

is free again

for without it I am nothing